I'm tired it all. I'm sorry. I'm tired of the anger. I'm sorry for my anger. The constant hatred and woe is me bullshite is getting really old. My anger and exhaustion is based around one thing: religion. I am on a pendulum, swinging between being a Christian and being a Wiccan. Trinitarianism seems like a happy medium, but there are holes in that theory too. I love God...I love the Goddess. I believe in Jesus...there are some things I don't believe. I hear the love of God and hatred of other beliefs on one side...I hear the love of Goddess and hatred of all things God on the other. I am so sick of it all.
With no further ado...
(This is me, pulling out my heart because it just can't take it anymore)
My apologies to the human race:
To those who hate God and Christians, no matter who they are, I'm sorry. I am sorry some asshat made you feel less than human for whatever reason. I am sorry that you have decided that there in no way can possibly be a God and that you have to let everyone know all the time how stupid any belief/faith/love/or following of God is and how absolutely retarded all of us are who want to do the above. I am also sorry that you are such fucking hypocrites with your "I would never hate someone like a Christian does" and then you write a diatribe on how much you hate Christians. If you need, I will put the definition of "hypocrite" up later.
To those who hate the Goddess/Buddha/Vishnu/et. al., and those who worship them in any way, I'm sorry. I am sorry that you have decided that the Bible states a "my way or the highway" mentality and that anyone who does not believe exactly like you is wrong. You, my friend, are the one who is wrong. When Jesus says to love every one, he means *every one*, not just the ones you deem worthy. Don't go around telling people Jesus loves you when you have no idea what love is. If I am wrong, then I am sure God will tell me when I get to heaven. If you are wrong, He will tell you the same. One way or the other, we will both be there.
I am a Christian. I believe in God. I believe in Jesus. As far as I am concerned, every attempt to disprove His existence has been completely and utterly thwarted. He is as real today as he was 2000 years ago.
I believe in the ideals of the Goddess and the beliefs of Buddhism. Buddha's teachings were of love and acceptance. The Goddess teaches us to love the air, the water, the earth that gives us life and sustains us.
So there. I'm sorry. I am sorry I let your anger seep into my blood and feed my confusion about who I am at this time of my life. I'm sorry I got angry at you and, in turn, became the hypocrite I have bitched about. I do, though, thank you for helping me take a closer look at my soul, taking stock, and responsibility, for who I am.
God Bless you and Blessed Be!
Peace, Love and (if this post pisses you off, and you decide you can no longer be my friend, you just proved my point) Zombies \IiiI