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The Adventures Of Zuzu Zombie, Undead Detective

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

random thought series #3: boredom or what's a girl to do


I get bored a bit too easily.
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Get bored with my hair color, I change it. I have been a sorta red head, I have had darn near black hair, and every blonde variation there is out there. My roots are starting to show, and the color I am naturally does not amuse me, so guess what I will be doing in the next week for so lol.
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Get bored with my hair style, I change it. I cut it all off, then beat myself up for it. No scissors for this mop, at least not for now.
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Got bored with my Pink Razor cell phone yesterday, so I went back to my Chocolate phone. I like the touch features, what can I say.
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I'm getting seriously bored with this body I have allowed to develop, so I am changing that too. Watching the calories, exercising, the whole kit and kaboodle. Now that all the bbq times are over, we can really concentrate and go for it. I plan on being at least 40 to 50 pounds lighter before my 20th reunion. The next time I get to go on a shopping spree with my BFF, we will be buying off the same racks!
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I am beyond bored with the template choices for my precious blog. Nothing sits where I want it too, or shows up the way I would like. Hence the reason everytime you look at it, it is different. Just keeping y'all on your toes. Did you notice the change in it, other than the template? Did you? Look close.... Tell me what changed and you get a gold star. If certain people see it, they should actually give me a hard time over it...don't disappoint me lol!
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The biggest boredom spot for me is my spiritual life. It is stagnant, and I so want to change it. There is a man a church, a patriarch if you will, someone I look up to, who asks me, every time he sees me, where I am in my walk and my work. I tell him I am on the park bench, watching the clouds drift by until I decide to get my butt in gear. It stinks to be in a spiritual low. I want it, but I don't. I need it, but I don't see why. I'm bored with where I am and want to grow, but can't get my get up and go to get up and go. I am a prayer warrior, an empath for others, but can't do it for myself, and when I want to, I feel guilty for it, especially when I know others are hurting. Sigh. There appears to be a fine line between empath and martyr...
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So, what's a girl to do? I guess, in a nutshell, I am bored with...me. I am so busy changing the outside, the material, that I am not doing anything for the inside, the spiritual. How can a person be content in life when there is no inner contentment. Whoa, that was a bit deep... I think I need a nap now.
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Ponder it all, noodle on it, and get back to me. What's a girl to do?
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Wonder if Clairol is on sale....
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2 comments:

Lisa Quing said...

The last time I looked there was a skull in the corner and now there's a lovely scene. I usually read through bloglines and only look at your actual blog if I comment.

I am cutting bangs. I think. And I need to dye my hair as the grey hairs are showing. To go darker or not?

Anonymous said...

Let me know if the Clariol is on sale! I'm trying to pick a new color.... oh the choices!

M

And think of it this way- change is good- or so I keep telling myself!