~~I have a warm (relatively) home with full cupboards.
~~I have a husband who provides for his family and loves them too.
~~I have a 14 year old who isn't a whore, doesn't drink, smoke, gage her ears or shoplifts from the local grocery store because her friends told her how easy it was.
~~I have children who try to be the absolute best they can be.
Don't know if you have seen "Shrek Ever After", but, and I know this will sound sad, it made me think about all of it. In the movie, Shrek signs a contract to have just one day to be what he wants to be: an ogre. Not a dad, not a husband, not an attraction. Just...Shrek. He signs away one "pointless" day to get it, and loses everything. His wife, his children, his home, his life. He realizes that all the insanity is what really makes him him, and fights to get it all back.
There are days I don't want to be a mom. I don't want to be a wife. I just want to be me...whomever that is. Kind of like that movie where the wives give their husbands a "hall pass" from marriage. I want to be free of it all. Then I realize I do have everything I want and need, even if selfishness does rear it's ugly head once in a while. I know that, in the end, I couldn't live without my children or my husband.
Could I live without the constant mess and fighting?
Um, let me think about that one...
Could I live without Michigan?
But I digress....
I am turning 40 in a mere three days, and I wonder what I have done with my life. I don't have a masters degree or some high paying job. No one is breaking down my door to be my friend or write me up in the paper. I do, though, have three beautiful girls and great husband.
Once in a while, I forget how blessed I am.
Once in a while, I remember.
Peace, Love and (wouldn't change it for the world) Zombies \IiiI
side note: those wonderful children, whom I am blessed with, fought me all morning to get ready for school and were all late. shoot me....