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The Adventures Of Zuzu Zombie, Undead Detective

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

doors

I know today is supposed to be "wordless wednesday", but we are going to go against the grain, k?

I want to apologize for being such a downer lately. It's been a nutso time and it has brought me down. Way down. I have allowed a temporary change in situation to dictate my permanent state of mind. I am at the bottom of a spiritual arroyo, all dried out, blowing sandy wind, unable to find the energy to keep pushing on. Waiting for someone else to give me permission to do what I know needs to be done. It's time to put the old mind to focus on the far off horizon and not the tumbleweed stuck to my socks. It has to start somewhere...

I get Su Casa magazine, and I clip out pictures that strike me in certain ways. I have begun to notice I have an obsession with certain piece of architecture: doors. Open doors, closed doors, garden doors, faerie doors. I was starting to think maybe I have some weird issues, and I realize, I do. What are doors but a portal to something new, something different, a change. *shivers* change.... Say it again...change. The 'c' word. I love the door in the pic above. Simple adobe wall, simple wooden doors, but look at the sky on the other side. So colorful, so beautiful. Holding hints of a storm at some point, but so calm at the same time. What's on the other side? What do you think is on the other side? Let's open it up and find out....

Thank you to all my bloggy friends, old and new, for helping me remove my head from my lower point of contact. Ally, Jesse, Debbie, Michelle, Robyn, on and on. I do appreciate all of you so much, and am blessed that you didn't get completely fed up with me and move on. Y'all are either totally awesome or complete gluttons for punishment lol. One way or the other, I love all y'all.

This won't be easy...nothing worth doing ever is. I'll keep looking for those doors, opened or otherwise.

So, should I knock or just walk on in.....?

\IiiI

5 comments:

Sleepy Cat Hollow said...

Yes, Please do knock! I wanna see the court yard on the other side!

Pamela said...

Only you would use the term "spiritual arroyo"!! Go on, open the door and walk right in.

MICHELE said...

Put your hand on the door.
Now, slowly turn the knob....

Start to push open the door...very gently...

What should you be seeing? Jesus in a cowboy hat, standing next to a Texas longhorn, smiling...saying Pen, it'll all be mighty fine... let's go have a plate of nacho's and talk to me. "I" will not let you down. Ever.

That said, you can always give me a call, too...Applebee's has the best nacho's and you can always talk to me in confidence.

Hugs...
Hang in there...
Been there...

Mich.

AllyJo said...

awww honey, no need to apologize. Life brings us dark times, where we can look back later and see God's hand caring for us and protecting us and leading us.

We all need a safe place to deal with pain and God has brought some loving people into your life to give you a safe zone to deal with things.

I've been there (many times). We moved to Tampa from Jacksonville because of church problems. Nothing hurts worse than Christian's who slander and back stab. You feel so betrayed.

Oh well, I'm carrying on here...you are loved.

Warrington said...

Love you- heck let's make it fun and kick that door in! I'm game!

Hugs!