I'm having a bad day...and that is okay. Seriously. It's funny. I had posted a couple "dear so and so's" because I am just fed up with people not giving a shite about anyone but themselves, friends and family included. I realized that, in the end, I just don't think right now I can give two shites right now. I am tired of caring and being ignored, and I am tired of trying to stay in contact and being pushed aside, and I am tired of killing myself to keep a nice home in a family that apparently could care less. I realize, today, I just don't give a shit. At all...
So, today, I will do what I have been doing for 18 years, what I will do for 18 more years and then 18 more years after that. I will clean. I will cook. I will scrub. I will not have any adult conversations or go anywhere other than the grocery store. And by 6 p.m. tonight it will look like I didn't do a damned thing. Tomorrow, I will do it all again...I'm tired. I am very very tired. But I am losing weight :). As of Tuesday, I am down a touch over 13 lbs. Yea me.
Peace, Love and (going to eat your lazy fooking head) Zombies \IiiI
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Oh dear. Those days, those BAD days, are so hard. It can be such a hard, mean world. I feel that often. Hang in there. And remember, keeping the home DOES matter, and your husband and children know it. And WOW, I'm impressed (and a tad jealous) of your weight loss. Good for you!
Thanks Stacey. I am sorry to be complaining...I really am...but I am just as low as I can get at the moment. Can't tell you why...it just...happens I guess...
I truly loved your pictures from the the blessings. So calming and beautiful :).
keep up the good work with the weight loss! mich.
Oh and congrats on the weight loss!!!
Your life sounds like mine...same shit different day. Where's a good zombie invasion when you need one? At least it would bring some excitement and adventure. lol
What happened to the So and So's? :) You laid it out there pretty nicely I thought. I read them earlier at work but didn't have an opportunity to comment then. I'm right there with some of the things you said ~ I have discovered trying to remain friends with some people is exhausting...so I have decided to take a rest.
Sorry about the blues...they are part of what happens as you age. The fits of rage, the boo hoo's...then you wonder what is wrong with me. It is the circle of life and I wish I could tell you it will get better, but I can't. But I can tell you, after the hormones have left the building, you will discover "you" again ~ and she will be better and stronger after all she has gone through.
Major congrats on the weight loss ~ that is fabulous! :)
Mejis@ I actually dreamed about zombies last night believe it or not! Wonder if it were a premonition lol.
Debbie@ I was with you until the "happens as you age" thing lol. I had gone back to edit the "so and so's" and ended up deleting them instead...quite on accident. Ticked me off lol! I am just so fed up with feeling like the only one who cares. I know that sounds selfish as hell, but I do believe you understand what I mean. Hormones suck lol.
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